"If something sounds to good to be true, then it's best shoot it to be sure"

I'm looking at my last post....and I sound like a total whore. I'm trying not to get my feelings confused about things right now, I still have feelings for my ex, and I know that he has to as well (I hope). And now my girlfriend is back in my life....not really sure how I feel about it, I think that the only reason that she is because my ex talking to her about the issue that we had. I don't want her drama I've got my own issues to deal with, like graduating and getting a job....not being like her. Not caring about her and her issues makes me feel like an evil bitch but then I have my ex in one ear saying to just drop her like she tried to drop me and my other guy friend in the other ear saying that being around her makes me someone that I'm not.....and they both along with all my other friends and family like me better when I'm not under her influence.

What to do, oh what to do.....get a job, pay off my loans, go back to grad school, get my PH.D in art history, spend the rest of my life in a museum......maybe get married and have a family, that dream I always used to have before it was all taken away

Peace, Love and C4!