Just some blah blah blah

Hello empty universe that is the internet.
I really don't have any new and exciting going on in this life, but I feel the need to vent out some more of the story of the last 6 years of my life.

Firstly you really don't know me, so here it goes. My name is Samantha and I'm currently a senior at Indiana University. I came to IU really because he was here already, that and nearly all my friends from high school came here...come to find out later they came here because of me (we tend to do things like that, like my friends would copy off of my work when I was copying off of them). I'm the type that loves to go out, have a good time, and be with friends. I'm a huge Indianapolis Colts fan (actually football in general, NFL and college). I'm a gear-head, and a sucker for classic cars, specifically a 67 Mustang. I'm also a really big dork, I love my friends (whom either are gamers or are Colts fans).

I really can't bring myself to say his name so he is just going to be a pronoun. He is a grade above me, and in all actually we have nothing in common. He is a gamer and would rather raid in World of Warcraft than watch TV with me. He has chronic Depression and P.T.S, so he really doesn't like to do much of anything other than wallow in his grief and self pity...I really thought that I could help him. I'm a fixer, but there is no way that I could fix him, I know that now. And he really didn't like football, and didn't like it when I talked about it, he didn't like that I knew more about a "guy" subject than he did.

I can find peace in a few simple facts that have come about from him leaving me: I'm not getting in to a marriage that is destined to end in divorce (90% of all marriages when one spouse has depression ends in divorce), I can hopefully find happiness, I can live in a city (he didn't like the city), and I no longer feel the effects of his depression (and making me overall happier). My greatest grief is in that I lost a ton more than he did when it ended, I didn't just lose the man I loved, but my best friend in the entire world and his family. I lost my older sister and her husband, a mother, and the 4 nieces that brought me so much joy, I love you girls all so much.

OK enough for now, this whole thing really blows!