Less than standard, Less than desirable

This is not the life that I wanted for myself when I was making my grand plans a year ago. 22 years old with no job, assets, or money and being totally single while living in my parent's house is not what I had planned for myself. But hey that's what this entire fucking blog is about isn't? How bad my life sucks life after happily after is blown to hell?? I was supposed to be playing house with who I wanted to be my fiancee....I was hoping to be engaged by now. But no....I'm tearing my room apart and totally re-decorating, so that when I end up back in this tiny town where I'm never going to meet anyone, at least I'll have a nice room.
And if the constant reminders that I am in this life isn't enough to make me want to drive my car head on into a tree, my oh so perfect cousins and little brother are. My one cousin had a 4.0 for the year and is an chemical engineer, another is a mechanical engineer and pulling good grades, and the other is ROTC and has something like a 3.7. My perfect little brother also made the Dean's List. The closest I've come to the Dean's List is watching my oldest friend get it year after year. My parents tell me that my family loves me no matter what grades I get, or what I achieve in life, but that is hard to accept when you have a history degree in a family of engineers and accountants. I can't even manage to have a 3.0 with the easiest degree in the family.
I clearly have too much time on my hands....this whole summer bites already...please let it get better!